Mike Hall

IN TWO MINDS ………..

Here I go again trying to explain partly for my own benefit in words a feeling that I just don’t understand and to be honest troubles me, it’s almost like I have two minds, one which controls fact, the truth of the situation and the other, fiction, that thinks it’s all just a dream. It might be just head and heart having their usual fight, but this time it’s more in the head a...

Well we went for a ride today while the weather was in our favour, clear blue sky but a chilly 5-7 deg less the wind chill. When the sun did bathe us, it was very welcome but unfortunately was sporadic and short lived. We did a circular, well sort of, trip to the outskirts of Cambridge and back on a mixture of roads, cycle paths and tracks including a ridiculously high foot bridge over the A11 ...

THE DEEP END…………

I’m not sure if this is actually helping or not but for the moment I’m running with it. I seem to need to push myself into situations that I don’t want to do, but need to do, so I can feel what it is like and then make an informed judgement on which way to act.

In this case it’s about going away on my own. Some of you might think what’s so hard about that? Well in my situation, m...

One of the many feelings that you have to live with when you are in the grips of complicated grief is that of isolation and withdrawal, which is further complicated by the covid pandemic where unfortunately we have been forced to keep apart and this has unfortunately played into my hands as a convenient excuse to stay in my castle.

Firstly I must reiterate that grief is a personal thing and ever...

The Pendulum effect……

It’s been a while since I added to my grief story, and I write these accounts not as a cry for help or to wallow in self-pity but to try explain the feelings that are felt along the journey. Most men do not share stuff like this, no doubt for many reasons, some might be because it shows weakness, some might be as they don’t need too, some might not know how too.

Well I’ve tr...